We sat together with our knees apart
Close to the level of our chest lines
We sat together holding hands
Your left fist clasped over mine.
With our backs turned to the world,
We faced the future together
Knowing that our stars will shine;
Yours and mine positioned side by side in the sky.
We sat with our knees closed
My head bowed low and shoulders heaving
We sat together until I noticed you were no longer beside me
And I was alone.
With no one to respond to the world or face the future
My star had fallen without a sound
Replaced by the dark blue of the sky,
Your star shone until it began to burn
The images of the times we sat together.
The fiery red flames forcing me
To acknowledge that you once were
And I am not going crazy.
As hot as the flames are, I hold onto them tightly
In my right fist, wishing once again
That your left will clasp over mine.
I raise my fist to my knees slowly
Unravelling its fingers one after the other.
The flames lick up and consume my chest,
Causing my heart to be redder than it has ever been.
The memories of when we sat together drop around me
Like freshly ground ashes eager to be blown away
My entire being in tremors from the pain
As I stand up to be immersed by the burning.